Yep! That's me! On the left & the right. So far the best before & after I have ever achieved. With that, Happy Monday everybody! *Just a quick disclaimer for today* Today is going to be a different post on Alittleglassbox....I am sharing a part of my life with you guys because we're all a blog family now. So if you aren't interested in knowing more about me or seeing tons of pictures from the past then you probably will want to ditch the blog for today (today only, haha) and come back tomorrow when I get back to some fun projects.
This time every year I am reminded of how much I love my husband. Not only because our 7 year wedding anniversary was yesterday, but because when I look back and see who we were when we first got married and who we have grown into, I am amazed that we have stayed strong together instead of pulling apart. My sweet husband knew me and loved me when I was in my worst life moment. I did not allow myself to feel and deal with pain and I just kept stuffing every emotion or insecurity that came my way down into my stomach with food. He loved me through it and made me his best friend. He supported me when I had failed my own body.
So after surgery I held tight to who I was inside and started embracing the changes my body was going through. My husband allowed me to blossom and he changed with me. See I told you he was amazing. The process was gradual. But every day felt like a new beginning. Even losing the first 40 pounds felt amazing.
2.5 years later I got pregnant with Oliver. Such fantastic news and a fun adventure but torture on my weight gaining psyche. Every pound that went up on the scale felt like a personal failure. Ryan was there to rub my back and tell me I was gaining baby and not fat. He was partially right...but I appreciated his support nonetheless.
I am sharing this with you guys to gain some motivation and inspiration to keep trying. Do any of you struggle out there? I struggle so much with the fear of getting back to 100+ pounds ago where I was so miserable and trapped in my own body. I like to surround myself with pretty things and the one thing I hated while being so over weight was the person staring back at me was not viewed as pretty. I don't ever want to be that person again. I want to teach Olly confidence and for him to be proud of his mama. This may seem like a sad story but it's really one of thankfulness and happiness and hope. I am so thankful to my friends and family who loved me before, during, and after. I am so happy that Ryan and I did this together and it made us happier together, and I am so hopeful of my life to come.
I know it may have seemed heavy for a Monday (no pun intended) but I just wanted to share the part of my past who is responsible in creating who I am now. That overweight girl was brave to dig up emotions and head strong to change her life. She created me & helped me to finally shine through.
*THANKS so much for letting me share with you guys. You all are the best.