Tuesday, December 4, 2012

The best present I could have given myself {it's my birthday}

I am so excited for this post and it was only fitting that I share it with all of you on my 30th birthday!!! The truth is I have been on a weight-loss journey for the last 20+ years of my life. That is way too long to be on any kind of journey where you are depleted of all hope and have such negative feelings about yourself. I was determined to make a particular goal by my 30th birthday so I could say goodbye to the self loathing, the guilt, and the exhaustion of always feeling like I need to lose weight. I will no longer let weight struggles guide me through any more birthdays. I know I will have up's and down's and moments of worry, all while trying to maintain...but I am letting the pressure go...I'm letting it float away.

As one of my best friends likes to remind me...I owe it to all of the people who love me to try and stay on this Earth for as long as possible. I hate to admit he's right....but in this (one) case he absolutely is. Which is one of the motivations behind working so hard to give myself the best 30th birthday present I could ever give myself. I know many of you have gone through this last leg of the process with me. I cannot thank you enough for your kind words and encouragement. You have fed me in ways that sugary, fattening, and over processed junk could not have. I have lost a total of 140 pounds over the last six years and 60+ over the last seven months. I have been working so hard to not only shed the pounds but also the mentality that got me here in the first place. The truth is the extra pounds made me feel claustrophobic in my own skin. I felt trapped and stretched to the max in the body I deemed cursed. My future sat inside a sealed box just hoping that I would soon discover it and live it to it's fullest. So, here I am. I am promising myself as well as the world that I am going to live my life to the fullest. This will be my last weight loss post but I felt it only seemed appropriate to share the end of the road with all of you amazing people who have walked along side me.

So now comes the fun part...I get to do a little show and tell. The before picture was taken at my heaviest at 304 pounds (I thought 299 was the highest I ever reached and was recently enlightened that the hubs had seen the scale hit 304 at the doctors office and never told me). I used the same shirt in the after picture as a way to prove it was really me, because people always say, "that's not you". As if I would want to lie about that. I cannot tell you at the time how hurtful it felt when I would put on a t-shirt that exclaimed XXL on the front of it for the world to see, but it was the only t-shirt that really fit. I am also saying goodbye to this t-shirt for forever. If I ever see it again that would be too soon.




So there it is. The transformation and turning point of my entire life documented for forever. I am celebrating my achievement today & I hope you will all celebrate with me. I hope, if anything, that I am proof that you should never give up.

I also want to say a HUGE shout out to my mama! She totally rocks for bringing me into the world 30 years ago and for keeping me alive wooo whooo!

Thanks for letting me share with you lovelies today! I'll see you tomorrow, partied out and hopefully cake comma happy.


38 comments:

  1. You are amazing and beautiful and such an inspiration - hott mama! hehehe I hope you had the bestest birthday ever (hey mine was Saturday, how cool is that?!)!! :) You have made it plainly clear that I need to get back to 'work' on myself. Fell off the bandwagon after losing 55 lbs, now I have to start over. Thank you for sharing yourself and your journey. May you ever stay happy and healthy. What else can anyone want? :)

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  2. ahh-mazing Court! what a wonderful gift you've given to yourself. A BIG happy 30th birthday to my beautiful (inside & out) blogging buddy.
    xoxoxo
    PS - you and red lipstick should never part (hotness all around).

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  3. You are gorgeous, and such an inspiration! I love reading your blog cause its so pretty and happy! And happy bday! What a great gift :)

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  4. Wow you rock!! I am trying to lose 15 more lbs but why does it seem so impossible? Seeing your photos though has inspired me to keep on going! Happy Birthday!!!!

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  5. Wow, what a transformation. You look amazing, and more importantly it sounds like you FEEL amazing!!!! Kudos to you on such an incredible journey and such fantastic results for all your hard work. I hope you have had the bestest 30th birthday possible with lots of hugs and kisses from that gorgeous kiddo that you will be able to chase and play with for many years to come :)

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  6. Hey pretty girl!! Go Courtney, it's your Birthday....we gonna party likes it your Birthday!!!

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  7. Happy, Happy Birthday, Court! There are no words for how inspiring your story is... I may have teared up a little scrolling through the before and after pictures. I hope you have an absolutely magical day full of the little surprises and joys that make birthdays the sweetest!

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  8. YOU GO GIRL!!!!!!!! Happy birthday too :) -terri

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  9. Congrats and Happy Birthday! You are a true inspiration! I have been at this point in my life where I am really unhappy with my weight, and instead of doing something about it, I just keep letting it get me down. You are living proof that if I just put my mind to it and stay faithful I can achieve the same results! Keep up the good work and enjoy yourself!

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  10. I check your blog everyday but have never posted. I stopped by today just to tell you Happy Birthday! You look AMAZING!! Weight issues really stink and I am so happy that you have found your groove and are at peace. I am 32 and trust me your 30's rock!

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  11. I am so proud of you. I know how dedicated you have been on this journey. I have been with you every step of the way. You have had strong support from the hubs and that has been a blessing., and he is so proud of you, and has every right to be. This grandmother puts you on the highest pedestal. Congratulations on reaching this goal. I love you. Have a happy birthday!!,,,,,,

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  12. Very inspiring! You are such a sweetheart and deserve to be living your best life with your precious family.

    P.s.
    You are rockin that leather jacket!

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  13. You go!!!!! What an amazing inspiration and incredible way to spend your birthday.

    Happy, happy birthday.

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  14. what a wonderful birthday present! you've done a wonderful job and you look fabulous!! great way to ring in the thirties! whoo-hoo!

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  15. You look absolutely stunning! Not only are you beautiful on the outside, but you're just as beautiful on the inside. Happy Birthday!

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  16. Happy Birthday and congratulations on your amazing transformation. You look radiant!

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  17. happiest of birthdays, and congratulations on your amazing success!!! i hope you had a beautiful day, and are well on your way to an amazing year!

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  18. Happy Birthday!
    Congrats on your transformation. Wow!

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  19. so so so proud of you! you are wonderful! i'm glad that you feel as beautiful as we have always seen you!
    much much love!

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  20. These pictures are truly inspriational! Thanks for sharing -I hope you have a lovely birthday!!! :)

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  21. You are beautiful, inside and out!! Always have been and always will be! Much congratulations on your hard work and feeling your best. Happy 30th birthday! Your 30s will be AWE. SOME. Enjoy them to the fullest. Spoken from a 40-something girl who knows! :)

    Xo

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  22. Congratulations on a job well done, and happy, happy birthday to you! I love reading your blog, and it has been an honor and pleasure to follow your journey over the past months. I pray you will remain strong and continue making healthy choices always. You are a beautiful young woman! (And I agree that your mom rocks!)

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  23. Stunning!! Hope you have a wonderful and blessed day with continued joy and happiness through out the year! As always, thank you for your wonderful and inspirational posts.

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  24. Lady, you. look. rockin!!!! What a great birthday present to yourself, congrats on all the hard work paying off :)

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  25. Glory be! You are amazing. Happy birthday!

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  26. Happy Birthday!!! You look amazing! Clearly you have so much dedication and perseverance. Definitely something to admire. Keep it up!

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  27. Good for you! You look amazing! Happy Birthday!

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  28. Your story is SO inspiring! Thank you for sharing it. And I hope you're having a wonderful birthday! PS the pic of you in the little black jacket is G.O.R.G.E.O.U.S.!!!!

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  29. Courtney, happy birthday!!! You look amazing! Congratulations on all you have achieved. You are a beautiful, creative, talented person on the inside AND the outside! So glad your journey has such a profound and positive result for you. Enjoy for a long time, you should be very proud!

    PS-I agree about the lipstick and the jacket, both are awesome, but I think you look amazing in anything you wear!

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  30. I thank God every day that you are MY kid!! You are beautiful in every way and so talented, creative, and accomplished. Congratulations on everything you have accomplished by 30!! Hope you had a great birthday with your sweet husband and precious son - sorry we could not be together, but you are always in my heart, no matter how many miles are between us! Love you lots today and every day. (Please note: This message was sent when you turned 30 to the minute!)

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  31. okay - well ALMOST 30 to the minute. For some reason, it put the time of my post as in the Eastern time zone, which neither or us is in ..... go figure! HA!

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  32. Happy Birthday!
    Im really glad you lost all that weight. You are stunning. Youre hubby must be really happy with the new you. And not only that, you make me feel that you are really sweet, and a good person. Congrats!

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  33. wow, i'm happy for you. I'm going through same proces these days. Isn't it the best present???
    btw you look great!

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  34. Wishing you a very happy birthday, sweets! You are truly a lovely person and an amazing source of inspiration to so many!!! Thank you for being a shining star here on earth :) Cheers to many more years of health, love and happiness. xoxo
    -Patti

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  35. What an awesome accomplishment and an amazing gift to you and your family! Happy Bday, I will celebrate mine tomorrow:)
    Sheleah

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