Tuesday, April 16, 2013

Fighting fat {your personal questions answered & an update}

Hey guys. I thought today might be a good day to do a bit of catching up. For those of you who follow me on Instagram you see me in front of the camera a bit more than you do on the blog and I have noticed that many of you keep making sweet comments about my weight and my appearance. I started thinking that it doesn't seem very fair that I haven't updated you on my weight and overall health in the last four months because you guys were such an encouraging driving force on this last leg of my seven year journey. So today I am updating, keeping it very real, breaking it all down, and letting it all hang out (so to speak). And no worries, if this post isn't your thing, I'll be back tomorrow for a fashion inspired "want it for less Wednesday".

So here is a little bit of a timeline for those who may be curious as to pounds lost and how long it has taken me.

Before I wore a size 24, attempted to run but my knees would hurt, could hardly breathe, and slept horribly.
Now I am wearing a size 4/6 (depending on what it is), I am able to run, workout, all while breathing & sleeping amazingly.

Here are a few questions I am asked a lot:

Do I have any lose skin?
Yep...that's unfortunately the reality of losing over 150 pounds. I have not quite determined if I am ready to go under the knife again to have body contouring surgery but will keep you posted if I do.

How did the Hubs feel about my weight?
He has always loved me at any size. I met him when I weighed around 220 and when we got married I weighed between 240-250. After we got married he stopped noticing the weight gain like I did. Once I decided I wanted to take control of my own life he fought for me & supported me and enjoys the new me. This territory is new to us because I have never weighed this amount in my entire adult life. It is interesting for us both to see my body change shape & how it even changes my facial features.

How did I do it?
Well, 7 years ago (in May) I had gastric bypass. I don't normally shout this from the rooftops because I don't want to influence someone else's decision to have such a drastic procedure. It truly saved my life and I would do it again tomorrow because it was what was right for me and my little family. After years of stretching parts of my stomach back out and not being quite as dedicated, as well as being pregnant...I found that I had put some of it back on but kept 80lbs. off. So a year ago I decided that I was done going up and down and being unhappy and hating myself in photos. So I have changed my entire lifestyle and dedicated it to living a happier and healthier life. I still eat very small portions and try to replace some meals with protein shakes or lower calorie foods. I don't believe in "cheat days" or denying myself because this is a lifestyle I have now adopted for the rest of my life. I am active every day which to me is the most important thing. For the first three to four months I just ran every day. i Then added walking once a day in the morning and running at night. Then I went to running longer and faster and sometimes twice a day on the weekends. I then added blogilates and I cannot say enough amazing things about it. And just recently I have really been concentrating on adding weights and toning, as well as, maintaining my cardio. Since starting this a year go I have lost over 60 pounds.

How much did surgery cost? 
I was lucky enough to be fully covered through insurance. However the breakdown was over $28,000.

For those who wonder what I look like currently here are some photos from a project shot over the weekend.

Even though I can see imperfections and areas I would still like to improve on, I remind myself that this is a long term process. I abused my body for years and even though I know it has forgiven me, it is going to take time for it to completely heal. And for the sake of being fair here are 2 photos that were shot in-between takes that are the real deal....just in the spirit of showing the good, the bad, and the ugly. I hate side shots but this is my body and I am embracing it.

No sucking in...no flattering angles....just me. So that's the update I felt like you guys deserved. You have been so amazing to me. I want to help any of you that want my help so feel free to email me. I want to hear your stories and be there for you because at times I knew what it was like to feel alone throughout it all. And for those of you who live in Canada and need support, I was introduced to a fantastic weight loss center (Canadian based) which offers coaching, support, recipes, herbal health & nutrition called Herbal Magic Nutrition Centres. 

Whatever you take away from (this extremely long post) today just remember to love yourself and be kind to your body. Reach out when you need help and be proud for just making a little step. You deserve the best life possible. See you lovelies tomorrow. 


  1. you. are. the. bomb! we are proud of you!!!!!!!!!

  2. Great story of your journey, thanks for sharing

  3. You are absolutely amazing and such an inspiration!

  4. Courtney,
    you were beautiful then and you are beautiful now! I hope you are sooo proud of reaching your goals and being an example of health! I became a reader and stayed a reader not only because you are by far the most creative person I've ever seen (and I don't take that lightly- I'm an artist and I'm surrounded by other artists constantly) but also because you radiate joy and happiness- in a world that can be so dark. You are truly beautiful inside and out girl!

  5. What an amazing accomplishment! You are a beautiful at any size, but health is more important than beauty- now you have BOTH! Congrats on sticking with it through the years, it is such hard work. I know this is going to inspire someone, thanks for sharing your story with us.

  6. You Look so happy! Congratulations on this accomplishment!

  7. WOW! what an amazing journey and honest pictorial. You will, and I am sure have, inspired many. I found you via BlogBoss and have had fun following your posts. Keep it up =- you look beautiful and I am sure feel amazing!

  8. I dont think you will ever know the far reaching impact of your words and honesty. Thanks for letting us all in on your journey and your life!

  9. Thank you for being so honest about your journey. Weight has been a lifelong issue for me, and it's really nice to know that someone else has struggled and succeeded. Have you read Caitlin Moran's book How to Be A Woman? She has a chapter on weight that was really eye-opening. She writes that we need to be able to talk about fat before we can fix our relationships with food, so thanks for talking about it.

  10. I am beyond impressed. And you look fantastic in those side shots!! Congrats!

  11. All of you are so sweet and so inspiring. Your kind words keep me going in the right direction. We must first start being honest to one another, especially as women...so that we can conquer the things that prevent us from having the best life that we can and that we deserve. Love to you all!

  12. simply beautiful... inside and out. thank you for sharing.

  13. Looking good mama! I'm so proud and happy for you. Such an inspiration. XO


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